Dad has emphysema. The same thing that killed my Grandmaman. I feel so weakened by it right now. I just want to cry. I just want to starve and exercise the shit out of me. Hurt me to take the pain away, but I know that's not the right answer. I must pray, read scriptures, and hold hope with Heavenly Father. I know that my father is a strong man, and that I will be here for him.
My biggest fear is that my father won't get to walk me down the aisle. Please, Heavenly Father, have mercy on me and don't make me face that.
